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Behind the Ink

Not all versions of God are worth holding on to

About | The Trevor Letter

Hi, I'm Trevor

Writer | Observer | Learning to live from a place of trust

Hi, I’m Trevor.

For a long time, I believed in God.
But I didn’t feel safe with Him.

The version I was handed said He was love—
but acted more like fear, control, or distance.
I tried to believe.
Tried to obey.
Tried to fix what felt wrong inside me.

But deep down, something didn’t sit right.
And eventually, I stopped trying to force it.

Instead, I started listening to that quiet ache.
The one that said:
Maybe this isn’t who God really is.

That ache became a turning point.
And the turning point became a path.

Now, I write for people who feel it too—
those who still believe in God,
but need a better story.

One where love really is the core.
One where trust is possible again.
One where you don’t have to carry everything alone.

This isn’t about returning to religion.
It’s about returning to the God who never left.
And learning to let go of everything that convinced us otherwise.

If something in you is remembering you were made for more…
you’re not alone.